M&M's ugggggg

I don't know how I missed blogging for more than a week.  Time sure flies.  I think I best pick a day of the week and blog on that day.  I haven't read any blogs lately either.  So, I think a good day of the week is probably a Sunday for me even though today is Monday. :)  I'm really not very good at this blogging stuff.  I read everyone else's and think WOW wish I could express myself like that.

Well, the bad news is I'm still struggling with my mind talk keeping me from getting motivated.  I tend to beat myself up all the time.  For some reason I don't want to lose weight or stay on track or get some exercise because every time I set a goal or have a plan I go out of my way to sabotage myself and make sure I fail.  It's like if I self destruct I'm not so accountable.  I think I'm afraid if I eat right and exercise I still won't lose weight and I won't have an excuse.  I don't have the confidence that I can keep it up so I might as well give it up right away.  So, I need to talk nice to myself and boost my own moral because I am the one cutting me down.

The good news is I went to the Dr today for my annual physical and he was very happy about my weight loss.  I was down 10 lbs from May even though I weighed more than I thought I should.  It was in the middle of the day with my clothes on..... He gave me lots of kudos!!  He was happy with all my lab results so I'm doing something right.

I'm struggling BUT I'm making progress in the right direction so that makes me HAPPY!

This week I need to get back into the Gym.  I started off gung howe and then the weather turned really cold and started raining and (excuses) I didn't want to leave my house.  It's kinda funny.  When you get to my age, over 60, you get this mind set that you can do anything you want because you have paid your dues.  That thinking has been disastrous for me.     Pretty much makes me think I can eat what I want, sit and watch TV or play computer games all day and that is ok.  NOT  So time to get this lazy butt out of my chair.

My husband eats a lot of M&M's (daily).  They are in our pantry all the time.  I can go ages without touching them and then all of a sudden I can't leave them alone.  That is where I am at right now so I plan on making him move them to some place a little less convenient.

So my plan for the week is to MOVE and leave the M&M's alone!!

Have a great week ladies.  Now I'm off to read some blogs.

Oopps! Starting over!

Well I guess I'm off to a rocky start.  Had to go out of town and didn't do anything like I had planned.  I didn't log my food intake, my exercise, and didn't ear right.  I am disappointed on how I behaved while out of town.  I went to a crafting retreat in San Jose for 3 days and all we did was craft, eat, craft, eat, play bingo for prizes, eat, craft, eat.  We did a little bit of sleeping occasionally.  What a bunch of crazy ladies.  I'm not really one to do any crafting so I think I did more eating than if I were doing something I was really really into.   I must admit though I have a real problem of what I eat when I am away from home. So, I'm gonna start all over and catch up with all you beautiful amazing girls.  Your blogs are so cool and interesting. Keep up the good job.  I'm right behind you...  :)

The 2014 Challenge Begins!!

Here we are a new year and a new challenge.  New - not so much.  Seems this has been a recurring theme.  I am happy to say though it has been up and down and very slow, I am making progress.  I have been doing my blog off and on for several years.  Having it written down shows me that I have made progress.  So here goes.

I am excited to start this new challenge with a group of great women.  The ones I don't know yet I'm looking forward to learning a lot about you and your inner thoughts and feelings.  This is the place to let it all out and hopefully get the support we all need.  So here we go ladies!!  

Of course, my daughter Annie is the most beautiful, wonderful, compassionate, loving, and awesome human being and will help all of us in reaching new heights.  She is my biggest cheer leader and motivator.   Love you baby!!!!

To start this challenge I would like to set a goal for my first month.  I plan on being diligent in logging my food intake.  I really hate keeping track of everything so this is going to be difficult.  I will be using My Fitness Pal for this process.  Along with tracking my food intake I plan on tracking my activity too.  Hopefully I have some activity to track.  I have no problem in finding food to track. :)

I think I will be more specific next week.  I will feel things out this week and decide how much food and activity I want to maintain.  

I would like to be consistent and will be aiming for posting to my blog each and every Friday.   

So, I just want to say hi and welcome and I look forward to reading your blogs.  

cindi  

WOW What A Detour!I'

Well, I am back on track.  Don't know what happened but I went back up to 192lbs and feeling horribly fat, ugly, unhealthy so I got back to very restricted eating.  So Today I am 178.6 which is about what I was in March when I detoured big time.  I am feeling better about myself again and feeling like I can actually accomplish some major weight loss and life style change.  I have gone 3 weeks without any sugar, bread, pasta, potatoes (all my favorites).  I am no longer craving those things.  I'm drinking a minimum of 1/2 gallon and shooting for a daily water intake of 1 gallon.  I have learned I still have some willpower left in me.  Thought I used it all up when I quit smoking 17 years ago.  I think I may have found it again.  Yippy I'm glad to be back and plan on posting weekly again.   See ya soon  :)      

March Weigh-in

Just a quick note to let you know I weighed on March 1st and I'm up 6 ozs.  Weighed in at 178.0  I am really gonna try to make March a better month for me.  Gonna start with a trip to San Diego for a visit with Gregg.  I can hardly wait to run on the beach with my dog.  I think the beach is the only place I can run anymore.  Must be because it's softer and less jarring on my knees.  It's also softer if I fall  (I fall a lot).  Love, Love, Love the Ocean!!  When I'm at the ocean I feel close to all the loved ones that have passed.  Guess it's my piece of heaven on earth.  Have a great month ladies.  Good Luck  Wishing you determination, strength and success!! :)

Feb isn't working out

So my plans for February took a turn for the worst.  After babysitting sick kids I got home and got sick.  Thats been about 3 weeks and I'm still hacking like an old lady smoker.  (I was one of those so i know how that sounds)  Anyway being sick I missed the first week of the YMCA Weight challenge.  I got signed up the second week and then missed the third and forth week traveling.  So needless to say I wasted my money signing up.  We took a trip to Utah for a family funeral.  A very special Uncle that was buried on his 101 birthday!  It was more like a celebration than a funeral.  We stayed with Marty's sister Sheryl.  I found it to be very hard to eat good at someone else's house.  I have been brought up to do things to make people feel happy and appreciated.  That means if food is offered you except it.  Like donuts for breakfast!  They were delicious but I didn't really want to eat them.  They had a heart on them for Valentines day and it was a special thought and effort on their part so i eat them.  We had a few stops at fast food and even an ice cream stop.  At least I picked ice cream made out of fat free Yogurt.  This was a pretty amazing place.  Called Sub-Zero.  You pick the liquid you want (creamy, fat free, etc.), pick the added extras like nuts, fruit, chocolate, caramel etc., and then they take the bowl and hold it under a machine that sprays nitrogen (?) 320 degrees below zero for 15 seconds.  They start stirring the liquid in front of you and it turns to ice cream instantly.  Had a good time tasting everyones concoctions.  Anyway, I think I am holding my own on my weight but not losing in Feb.  I will need to get on the ball here.  Haven't made it to the Gym in a long while.  It is always so hard for me to start up again.  Well, good luck ladies.  Will be weighing in on Tuesday.......  I'm crossing my fingers.  haha  

February Weigh-in

I know I'm a little late.  I've been babysitting 4 kids (two of them sick).  Came home Thursday night and had a cold before I went to bed.  There was a scale where I was staying but I weighed myself and it was about 170 so I knew it was off to say the least.  So I weighed in on Friday 2/4 and weighed 177.4  Down 3 pounds.  That is wonderful news to me since I was expecting bad news for bad behavior.  I plan to be a little more in control in February and get into some routine for working out.  I've been so hap hazard lately so I'm going to set my goals so I don't feel overwhelmed.  Kinda like back to basics.
I am going to go to the YMCA at least 3 days a week.
Get back to drinking more water.
Increase Vegetables
Decrease Meat - At least two meatless meal a week and one fish meal a week.

On Tuesday I will be starting the YMCA's Wellness Challenge which is a program with weekly weigh-in's speakers, journaling etc.  I missed the first week so it will only be 8 weeks for me but I would really like to drop 10 pounds  during that time.  I think I can do it if I put my mind to.  keep up some good chatter in my mind and watch what I'm putting in my mouth.

Good luck ladies and we'll miss you Annie.