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WOW - I'm sure I have gained the couple pounds I lost plus added a few more. I really better get working this week. I spend the last 2 weeks or so in CA visiting family. What fun!!!! While I was there I stayed in a few different places and none of them seemed to have fruit and vegetables being served. We did a lot of going out to eat and basically celebrating with food. Well, I'm not strong enough to turn it down so here I am starting over. Thats ok, I think I had to quit smoking about 1,000 times before I made if permanent. I hope everyone is having success! If not, follow me and get back at it.

Boy do I have a lot of reading to do to catch up on everyone's blogs. I'm sure that will get me motivated again.

Checking In

OK, so things haven't been going as planned. Gotta get back on to my set of goals. I haven't gotten back to the club yet and I'm terrible about doing exercise at home. I will go walking but that's about it. I had put my membership on hold while I went to CA to take care of my Sister and it doesn't go back into effect until 2/15. I will be in CA again next week and returning on 2/16 so the 17th my drop dead deadline for returning to the club. No more procrastinating. I know when I am exercising it is much easier to stay on my water and healthy eating plan. I do have more energy and I'm not so down. I am excited to get back at it.

Weigh in is tomorrow and I'm sure I haven't done well but I will be happy if I have lost instead of gained with as on and off as I have been this month. (More off than on)

Good luck everyone!! You are all an inspiration to me and tomorrow should be very exciting. :)

Whats coming up?

OK, In order to be healthy I decided I needed to get caught up on a few things besides just focusing on my weight. I sat down with a phone and made appointments. I made appointments for my mammogram, eye exam, physical and bereavement counseling. I feel really good about this. I want to focus on the whole me.

This week I am headed back to the gym. It is so hard to start back up when you haven't done it for several months. I know I will love it once I get going but that first visit is hard for me. Can't make it in until Wednesday so Wednesday is my goal.

I'm thinking a scale just might be easier to figure portions. I may just have to get one. I'm also thinking a pedometer should be on my shopping list.

Have a great week girls.

The Skinny In Me

Came across a few quotes I just had to relay. I got my food diary started today. Pat on the back.

Quote #1

Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out but I can usually shut her up with cookies.

Friday is cookie day at our bank. They give you a free cookie when you come in. The cookies are the big bakery kind and you get to choose from Peanut Butter, Chocolate Chip and Oatmeal Raisin. Well of course yesterday I had to go to the bank. Guess What!! I got a chocolate chip cookie and took it home to my husband. Another pat on the back. :)

Quote # 2

If you can't be a good example - then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.

I'm hoping to fall in the good example group.

Night All :)

I'm here really I am!!!

Wow I guess I really let the time slip away. I haven't blogged since the 11th. So here goes.

I finally feel better. Got some antibiotic for my ear infection and sinus infection and feeling a bit more myself. I know Excuses, Excuses. I have way too many of them. Guess that should be a new goal; quit making so many excuses.

Hopefully feeling better will get me more motivated to get out of bed and get my butt moving. I haven't started working out to the videos yet like I planned but I have been getting out for a walk each day. Granted I need to make my walks longer but getting out is a start.

Haven't started my food journal but have been watching much more closely what I am eating and how much. Gonna try some of the suggestions I read about like saving 1/2 my meal for later. I really enjoy reading the blogs and all the positive remarks.

Oopps, I forgot my husband took me out to breakfast yesterday. I love to go out to breakfast. I need a lot more practice with control and restraint. I ordered like I usually do, eggs, bacon and french toast. All these years food has always been a reward, or used for a special event. I haven't quit grasped the idea that I can enjoy something that is good for me too. You don't want to spend your money on something you don't like as much as something you do. I have also grown up eating what is on my plate. No exceptions. In fact my sister and I would finish off everything that was left when we cleared the table after dinner. OMG I catch myself doing that now.

So, this week I will have to step it up a notch. Next week I plan on stepping it up two notches. Sorry, if it seems like I'm taking baby steps but I feel like I'm moving in the right direction now.

Keep up the great job everyone!!

My GOALS

Goals, Goals, Goals......

Ok I started setting some goals and emailed them to my daughter Annie. This is sort of what they looked like:

Eat smaller portions

Exercise to video's

Walk

Write in my blog

She didn't like that at all and said I needed specific goals. She's right, that was a lame start. So here is some real goals I have set for myself.

1. Get out of bed by 10:00 every morning. Don't laugh thats not easy.

2. Start taking vitamins daily again.

3. Drink WATER all day long.

4. Push fruits, Veggies and Salads.

5. Eat smaller portions..... NO Seconds!! NO large plates!!

6. Eat no more than once slice of bread daily.

7. Fruit, veggies, or hot herbal tea are allowed after 9:00. NO ICE CREAM! NO CHIPS!

8. Walk with Marty 3 days a week.

9. Do 1/2 hour exercise videos 3 days a week.

10. Write in blog weekly. Read daily!!

11. Give thanks for all my blessings :)

I do plan on updating and making these goals a little harder down the road. I also plan on starting at the club again soon.

I have a long term goal of losing 50 lbs but would be perfectly happy with 20 for this 6 month competition. Actually I would be more than thrilled with 20.

Thanks for everyones support, I'm sure I couldn't do it without you.

cindi

How I got here....

Well, I'm a week late getting started but I'm here so that's a good thing. I think I want to start by telling everyone how I got to be this 190 lbs and only 5' 1" in the first place.

I am 58 with 4 kids. I mean 4 beautiful, wonderful kids. I seemed to keep a little weight with each of my pregnancy's and was never into exercise or being healthy. I was still in OK shape, but still probably 20 lbs overweight, until I quit smoking 15 years ago. That was the real beginning of my weight problem. I gained 40 lbs and it has stuck good. I have never been a dieter that loses and gains and loses and gains. That always scared me to death so I think I avoided dieting because of that. Now I'm miserable. I hate how I look and feel. I have also been battling with depression since I quite smoking. Probably because I smoked for 28 years.

So its probable been a couple of years ago that I decided to change things. I joined a club and changed my diet. I switched to whole wheat bread, switched to soy milk, added a lot of fiber to my diet, and tried eating more fruit and vegetables. I think I lost 15 lbs but gained 5 back. So that was a solid 10 lbs loss that I have maintained. Yippy!! Working out was a hard one. I finally got to where I would go 3 times a week and work out for at least an hour. I really felt better. If I would have kept it up I think I would have been on my way to a happier, healthier me. Maybe.... I seem to think I'm fat no matter what I weigh. I remember being 121 lbs and thinking I was fat. I'm hopeless. on with the story...

Life happens. I lost my dad in Jan of '09 and spent a lot of time away from home so the gym and diet kinda went out the door for a few months. Then my sister-in-law had surgery on her neck and needed caring for so I spent roughly a month with her. Then my mother-in-law was terminal so I spent a month or so with her in her final days. That was in August. In October my Sister was diagnosed as terminal with her vulva cancer. I moved in with her to care for her until the end. She passed on 12/15/09. I miss her terribly. '09 was a rough year.

So here I am, I got in the competition just at the last minute so I hadn't revved myself up to come out swinging. I want to get started but seem to be content to go slow. My daughter, Annie Aubrey and sister Pamella Craven both joined so they are doing their thing to get me going. I'm counting on them, you, and me to get me off the couch!!!!!!

Sorry to be so negative. I promise to focus on the positive here in the future. Just wanted to put it all out there.

I am excited to get out of this hole I seemed to have found and I think this is just the place to accomplish that and lose a few pounds too.

Wish me luck girls :)

cindi